Of Great Worth in God's Sight

I know, I know, I’m a horrible blogger! I’m just going to stop promising to do better, because it probably won’t happen…though I do hope that it really will when I get to Romania!

I’m not going to really write much about the last month or so. It’s been really busy and good, and my last prayer letter was an update about that! If you don’t get my prayer letter but would like to, just email me (kabernathy@abwe.cc) and I’ll be happy to add you to the list! So that’s that. Moving on…

A few weeks ago most of my Romania team was able to get together for a few days in Nashville, TN. We were only missing one family from our whole team! It was a great time. I enjoyed being with them, hearing about their lives now, and also talking about what it will look like when we’re all in Romania together. We prayed a lot, ate A LOT, talked a lot and laughed a lot. So coming back from those few days together left me anxious to raise the rest of my support and get TO ROMANIA!!

You can imagine my disappointment, then, this last weekend when we sat down and added up my support from the last month (March-the crazy busy one that I hoped would be so helpful!) and discovered that my support level had actually gone DOWN instead of UP. Now, you might not know much about raising support, but I think you can probably figure out that isn’t a GOOD thing. You can imagine how discouraging that was. Over all, through this journey, God’s been really gracious and has protected me from discouragement. But last weekend was an exception. I really was discouraged.

Monday morning, I discovered 1 Peter 1:3-4. I don’t even remember why I looked at those specific verses. I think someone wrote them somewhere, or something. Anyway, I started thinking about them. They aren’t new verses to me. But this time Peter’s choice of words stood out to me. My faith is worth more than gold, more than the money that I am so desperately seeking. My faith is worth MORE in God’s sight. It is more necessary, more important. FAITH is of great worth. That isn’t really how I’ve been living these past few months. There’s never really been a doubt in my mind that God could provide all the money I need right away if He wanted, but for the first time I really thought about the fact that He’s more concerned about me having the faith I need to go to Romania than He is me having the money I need to go to Romania. So maybe He isn’t giving me what I THINK I need right now because He’s developing in me what He KNOWS I need. Something to ponder. I’ve been rolling it around in my heart for the last couple days. And I sense the discouragement fading too, as I’ve realized what I should have already known, but somehow lost sight of.

So be encouraged, friends! God is working to develop your FAITH, because it is precious and of great worth to Him. And so….we continue to take steps of faith, yes?